horny, thinking about how there is no god, imagining the cool nihilist kid with sunglasses meme, sun setting behind neighboring apartment building
how is it possible that I have written so much stuff and it’s all so bad, truly incredible, sitting down doing nothing and meanwhile climate change, masturbate halfheartedly to house music
enter uber, text my friend “omw btw I dreamt about this,” get so dead over this snake meme, start tearing up and muffled laughter before driver’s exclamation regarding a nearby car accident
this was in LA at the time, my girlfriend’s parents burst into my house, accuse me of drugging her, actually she was the one who gave me valium, I ask them not to go through her purse out of respect of her privacy, and the father begins physically intimidating me! she’s 23 btw
anyway, I take a flight back to NYC the next day, unemployed and with no housing, I rat sit for a friend vacationing in Europe, take a quick one myself to Philadelphia where a previously online gf breaks up with me and I return to my friend’s rat paralyzed from the waist down
poor thing, defecated on herself, found her under a pile of newspaper bits, crawling from food to water jug, same my sweet dude, same
wake up the next day to my friend’s landlord in his apartment, confusing me for him, where’s the rent, etc. felt flattering to be in that position tbh
what is it about me that i feel the need to share, and why does everyone care so much? there must be something about the way I’m living my life that is intelligent seeming
going to block all of my friends tomorrow
for bunny sitting at their place my friend gives me ketamine, I write some, listen to Soca and scour Youtube for any livefeed, boxing matches, the moon, puppymills, as long as it was live and not the news I felt more connection to reality
our generation, drug addled and confused, taught under No Child Left Behind, the other tragedy of 2001
this new person im seeing just ghosted me, feel like pure shit just want her back
have extreme anxiety from an intimidating selfie, don't like men at all but anyway, so I'm gay and a furry, just appreciate the style tho can't really afford a suit yet
the internet is so racist, that must mean a lot of people are racist
the current year is 2018 and people are denying asexuals their basic sexual freedom
radicals radicalizing radicals
please paypal me t.thimo@gmail.com
I'm woken up on my friend's couch, mistaken as him by his landlord, flattering to be thought of as in debt
I think only a small portion of what I say and recognize this privilege
stop accepting my applications I can not afford your workshops
I've been avoiding the leaseholder of the place I agreed to move into, can't pay for the first month let alone second, third, last, security and suggested donation, calls and asks if I am sending money
no, i say near a bus, i dont have enough money
well, he says, how much can you pay
none of it
understandable, have a great day
the australian upside down meme was unimaginative petty and racist
trauma based advice in the comments please
even though I write a lot of it down, I don't keep track of most thoughts,
it seems not too many memories are of thinking, though I'm sure I do it a lot
I love the aesthetic of media
I miss the bernstein bears timeline
2018 the year I learn everything causes trauma or cancer
google judy wood dustification free energy
my significant other complains I use my phone too much but likes all my memes
most of irl seems to be troubleshooting
i hate everything i like
anyway, meet someone I know from a secret group and they give me shrooms and make out, it went okay
i spray paint stick figures and meet up with a friend, im remembering while walking past holiday decorations, we lit xmas trees on fire on valium and quickly pace giddy to a nearby bar lol
remember crashing at his place in Oakland, someone drove their car on the BART tracks stranded me Downtown, Uber surcharged 300% and ended up anxiously in cab that just came from oakland back over the bridge, the sky was vaporwave
can't tweet about my relationship anymore, sad reacts only
tbh left very unimpressed with "love trumps hate" slogan
thinking about astrology and personality disorders
didn't realize my perception affected things so much
when someone messaging u becomes upset and starts making more typos lol
forgive me lord for what I must yabba dabba do
oh no left my charger in boe's room now his airbnber wont stop talking about her dog thats an actor but then she lights a menorah and i say, woah ive never seen that before
imagine if this whole thing was in gangster popeye font
what happened to all of lovey banh's books on Amazon
it's something unpredictable but in the end is right, i hope u had the time of ur life
apathetically tossed my phone, focused on rippling feeling in chest, breathing currently feels awkward
law and order dun dun
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